By Alex Zoloty
One saying that I’ve heard numerous times in various fitness posts is, “If you’re tired of starting over, stop quitting”. Every time I see or hear this, I think to myself, “This is it. I’m not going to quit. I’m not going to give in. This is my time to finally reach my goals.” Enter cookie tray at the workplace potluck, and the determination quickly disappears, almost as fast as that absolutely delicious chocolate chip cookie treat from the heavens.
I don’t know why it’s so easy for me to get off track.
I used to think it was because I didn’t “want it” enough. Maybe it’s the self-doubt and insecurities that I face. I’m not exactly sure what the answer is, but I do know that the constant cycle of planning and failing and planning all over again is just that. A tiring, worn out cycle. After one night with my trainer and sharing with him the struggles I was facing, he told me, “Alex, it’s a lifestyle. A fluid movement of ups and downs. The important thing is that you don’t give up.” At that moment,
I heard Christ talking to me through my trainer.
Yes, through this tall, muscular African American man, I heard Jesus calling me to stop getting so down on myself and to rise up and persevere.
Christ knows me better than I know myself. He knows just exactly how many of these cycles I will go through in both my fitness life and my spiritual life, and yet, the message of perseverance remains in both. I think back to all of the spiritual books I planned to read, the novenas that I scheduled to pray and the devotionals that I wanted to work into my schedule.
Very few of these ever actually were completed.
Sure, it was easy for me to think that because I didn’t abide with these plans that I must somehow now not be as close to the Lord as I could be.
The reality is that Christ was just as close as He had always been.
Much like my workout and diet routines that don’t go quite as planned, God doesn’t measure my worth by how many rosaries I pray or how many spiritual books I read. I’m trying to be close to Him, to engage in a personal relationship with Him, to live a Christian lifestyle, and that is what He is calling me to do. It may not always go as planned, but I will continue to power through the desolation and rejoice in the consolation, remembering that
Christianity is a lifestyle.
A fluid, lifelong journey that I am so blessed to embark upon.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Alex is a pharmacist by day and a volunteer with a high school youth ministry program by night. Besides scrolling through pictures of French bulldogs on Instagram, she enjoys singing, making crafts from Pinterest, going to the gym and learning about the saints. She is passionate about helping others, her faith and her family, and she cannot wait to enter into the sacrament of marriage on October 1, 2016.